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I've been really excited to see all the new activity in LJ-Land lately! I've certainly been encouraging it, I haven't really been helping it along, since I haven't felt like I've had much to say recently.

This last week has been recovery from Beer Week and I think I've done pretty good. I haven't smoked, drank or had fast food since we got back, minus one glass of wine with a nice dinner we had this past weekend. I haven't started exercising yet since the weather has been shit, but I did bootleg some workout DVDs and plan to start those soon. I'm still not sure if I am quitting smoking, I hadn't planned on it, my body just felt so abused that I wanted to stop for a bit. Now that I've gone a week though, I might as well try for two weeks, etc. We'll see. It's constantly on my mind and, to be honest, it's depressing. When I think of resolving to quit smoking it's like saying goodbye to a friend that you will never see again, it's such a huge part of my life. That said, even if I did quit, I can't imagine I wouldn't have the occasional butt while out drinking.

On the school front time seems to be moving quickly. We only have a few in person meetings this semester, with the rest being online check-ins and individual work on our senior projects. My project is a book about Taylor Mountain. I wanted to become more knowledgeable about my locale and so I thought that might be a good way to go about it. Right now I'm a little concerned because originally I had intended this to be a very short, informative guide but the more questions I answer, the more info I dig up and even more questions get asked. Well, it's not a requirement to finish by the end of the semester but I had hoped to. Again, we'll see.

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ellnra22
Feb. 24th, 2010 05:29 pm (UTC)
I really want to quit smoking, but like you, I feel like I just love it too much. I can't imagine having a few beers or some wine with friends without a smoke to go with it. I know it's so bad for me and I feel abused too some mornings and I will do really well for up to a week but as soon as a glass of wine is in front of me or a cold beer, there has to be a cigarette. I know that drinking is a "trigger" but I just don't know how to get rid of it.
damn cigarettes!
democritus
Feb. 24th, 2010 06:08 pm (UTC)
Yeah, absolutely drinking is a major trigger for me too, which has made this week easier since I am detoxing everything. We'll see what happens this weekend when we go to the bar, I am sure I will be smoking there, heh.
ange420
Feb. 24th, 2010 05:32 pm (UTC)
Since you've been smoking longer than me, you've probably quit more times than I have, but I feel you. One of the harder parts for me is the loss of identity... I don't like thinking of myself as a non-smoker. I think it's better to do it the way you describe: one week at a time. I've never been able to be an occasional smoker without falling back into being a regular smoker. I know some people can, but it is a risk.

What are you in school for anyway?
democritus
Feb. 24th, 2010 06:12 pm (UTC)
I have quit quite a few times, but always with aids before, so I never really felt as depressed about it. And yeah, I have obviously done the same thing over and over. Sometimes I try the occasional cigarette, then just on weekends, then just when I'm drinking, then all the time, lol.
democritus
Feb. 24th, 2010 06:16 pm (UTC)
Oh, and I'm doing a liberal studies program through Sonoma State University.
delphica
Feb. 24th, 2010 05:48 pm (UTC)
That is EXACTLY how I felt about quitting smoking, it's like ditching your best friend, the friend that was always there for you. I'm still sad about it.

I couldn't have the occasional cigarette while out at bars for at least a year, but now that it's been like three years, I will on special occasions (I would estimate once every two or three months). I know a lot of quitters who are all yuck, cigarettes are so gross now, but not me. I love them and still follow people who are smoking on the street.
democritus
Feb. 24th, 2010 06:14 pm (UTC)
That's great that you can still have the occasional one. My problem is that we are at the bar like every weekend. And as soon as I get a little tipsy it's like, "MUST HAVE, DO NOT CARE!"
delphica
Feb. 24th, 2010 06:30 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I think I stopped drinking without even trying to for those first months, although that's easier for me because I accidentally married someone who doesn't drink.

And I couldn't even tell people I stopped smoking for about a year and half, because when I did, they would want to talk about it and say all those pointless non-smoker things and that would make me think about cigarettes and then I would have to go curl up in a ball and cry.

I still like to self-identify as a smoker (non-smoker sounds too sad), I just don't happen to be smoking this exact minute.

So that I can add one positive thing, I have noticed that hangovers are 100x better if I didn't smoke while I was drinking. I was not expecting that little benefit.
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democritus
Feb. 24th, 2010 09:12 pm (UTC)
If you are going to any of the events, look for Odonata. They had one of the best sour beers I've ever had. They are a brand new brewery working out of a small warehouse right now and the brewers are really nice guys.

http://odonatabeer.blogspot.com/
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